Worthless - Rivilin

Yeah I never meant to be this way

Always shutting down never reaching out with the words I need to say

I could use a friend right now

I just need someone to pick me up so I just don’t drown

Can’t rely on others i’m just let down

Just pretend it’s fine until I breakdown embrace hell

I feel like I’ve been here before

Never really winning just pushing on to the next day

Attending funerals where I can’t remember the names

Maybe ill see myself laid to rest here and then i’ll fade away

Cus these thoughts don’t make sense to me never filled with energy

Anger seems to take control when I think of my families name

No matter how much I hate you I hate myself more

Just the fact that I can harbor this just breaks at the soul

So if you could tell me how to let go of this misery

Would you come, would you come and set me free

Im worthless, so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up, and then you say

It’s hurting, so what’s it now, what’s it now, issues seem to find me how

Im worthless so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up and light the match

Im burning, just to bring me down, bring me down, I open up my souls yours now

So what did I have to say

To make you hate me and turn things this way

My heart is like a river but it’s dried up

Burnt at both ends till the fire just consumes us

Yeah so how do I explain to a family that doesn’t understand

The sunlight passes through the shutters burn my irises again

Cus i’m introverted, not worth don’t wanna go outside

Mind is lurking on topics ill and say im fine

You can see pass through the fake smile

Yeah would you like to understand it even if it’s for a while

It’s like there are fishing hooks inside my skin

Yeah when everything is doing fine you reel me in

Searching through my pockets like what’s the point there’s no money there

Roll the last of my tobacco cus id rather breath it than the air

My gums are an astray why did I expect to stay

Walk into another home just to be kicked out again