Not Enough - Rivilin

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop

Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood

What’s it like when you lose touch

Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek

I don’t want this I don’t want

Cutting me down so deep

I feel like im just not enough

Lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now

Weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown

Covering my ears, the water rises

Your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams

Explaining why you just leave

Depression got too much

And you just had to block out the noise

Drown in pain

Drown in hate

I feel the pain

All in me

Shallow breaths

Steal my life lately

Tight my chest the

Panic hats me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yah

Memories replaying dread man

How can I be expected

To live this life, shit this ain’t it

Manic depression

My body be trembling

Tight in my chest

I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath

Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life

But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days

Why do I hate me

I’m not okay

My mind is crazy

What can I say

I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me

I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain

Seeded in memories inside my brain

Tryna forget my collection of bad days

Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain

And bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days

We fight past our memories living in pain

But we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop

Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood

What’s it like when you lose touch

Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek

I don’t want this I don’t want

Cutting me down so deep

I feel like im just not enough