I Hurt Myself - Dan Bull

My name’s Daniel, I’m twenty eight and I’m a self harmer

What I’m telling you is real, not just another way to sell drama

Not doing this for karma;

tearing, throwing off my armour

There, I’m showing off my scars, I’m bare, I hope I’ve not alarmed you

The way I retaliate to aggravation and stress

Is to smack myself in the face til my sad face is a mess

Scream my fucking lungs out, gasp, taking a breath

Hit the right pitch, the sound of glass breaking is bliss

But I can’t smash the mirror, I’m afraid of broken glass

So I punch the face I see in it, my bones make an open gash

I need a healing potion fast, throw me in the ocean, splash

The lifeboat has capsized, we’ve no hope and

No man’s an island, my contraband is anger, violence

Lower the flag, no aggro, please, I demand silence

Skull and crossbones, swollen cheekbones

Pull the trigger, reload, pull the trigger, reload

See me overdose on friendly fire

No hope 'til I tote a broken nose and I can then retire

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

I feel ashamed of what I did now I’ve returned to clarity

Even though I only hit myself, still it hurt my family

All the things I hate about myself, they may be true or not

It doesn’t matter when my face is battered blue and black, with bruises

Don’t know what abuse is, why I do this, I’m a loser

A faggot four-eyed freckle-faced fucking waste of space, I’ve had it

I deserve to be damaged, it’s a hurt I can manage

I can take physical pain, it’s the words that are savage

My nerves are just ravaged, a small disturbance is all but certain

To cause turbulence and of course they urge me to panic

I’m scared of blood but never backed down from a brawl

Stand up for myself, never sat down on the wall

I’ll go toe to toe until I’m passed out on the floor

One of us is going to hospital, that’s how much I’m raw

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do

Look what you made me do