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2 a.m. in my hostel bed, my eyes them red, my belly ain’t fed

I got butter but I ain’t got bread and I’m smoking on my last cigarette

I ain’t got creds I can’t make calls, got no papers I got no jewels

Got debts up to my eyeballs who made these rules, it’s a catch 22

Christmas soon come and I got no funds but what’s Christmas if you ain’t at mums

What I’m spose to do sit here and wait for this little JSA.

No blasted way

I’m a call G and get a food on conceit or use my giro and by a 16th

Now that’s small time but I got to make p’s, I’m so hungry man I just gotta eat

and 2 a certain degree

I’m intrigued by these streets, they say misery loves company and I’m so comfy

I could fall asleep but I can’t do that

I’m surrounded by cats, filthy cats sitting in steps with cat size rats

Yep it’s a fact I’m truly lost now, will I end up where I can’t be found

When life hits you with issues, Makes you wanna cry and wet tissues

Wondering who’s really with you, what you gonna do

When it gets a dramatic, and its over the top like bad acting

Sinking ship and you’re the captain, What you gonna do

All this abusing becoming amusing, the harsh reality becoming alluring

The life I’m choosing won’t stop moving and I’m refusing any kind of curing

Cause see right now this papers moving and to be honest this papers ruling

If God say’s it’s the demon I believe him, cause what I’m doing for him you

could call appalling

But there no such things as half way crook, so I pay cash and got my seat book

As i approach the peer i got no fear

Men women and especially gays

I’m getting more lost by the day, the deeper I go the harder to find my way

I know the blair witch I seen her yesterday, she collapsed naked on the bed

with a needle in her crotches

And the baby sniffles as he watches, but that ain’t nothing new

He’s always sniffling, always got a cold, yea that’s what crack’l do

Peek a boo, I seen you, doing what your people’s don’t know you do

But neither does mind and right now I’m not sure I mind cause right now I don’t

get my mind

When life hits you with issues, makes you wanna cry and wet tissues

Wondering who’s really with you, what you gonna do

When it gets all dramatic, and its over the top like bad acting

Sinking ship and you’re the captain, what you gonna do

What you gonna do when things

Get on top just like a swing

And you tired of arguing, saying the same things

What you gonna do when things

Get on top just like a swing

And you tired of arguing, saying the same things

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