Elephant in the Living Room - Speech Debelle

The lies weren’t created to hurt you

I should have known the only way out was through

Should have rolled up my sleeves

And started moving this elephant out the living room

A lick of paint 'cause the walls felt clinical

The couch became my own hot seat this is my life

But ain’t no Aspel it’s just us two

I needed more the bedroom was a chore

Hiding from my own thoughts a prisoner of love

'Cause I knew that you needed me I thought was enough

Over time I just became stuck

And it weren’t that you weren’t special to me, yes

I can read that expression clearly

You got a look like I’m trying to patronise you

But I’m telling you the truth I’m tired of hiding from you

I’m looking in zoom, but it’s not tunnel vision

'Cause spread the pieces like a puzzle and put it back together listen listen.

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I can’t do this any longer

I’m tired

And if I stay her any liar

A liar, a liar, a liar

I’ll be a liar

A liar, a liar, a liar

You’ll call me a liar

I know you’re not weak but you’re human

And I been hurt before so it kills me to do

I feel like I’m the one to destroy it I should have never allowed us to pursue

Now I feel so stupid

The moment that I had second thoughts

I shouldn’t push it the back of my mind like it’s a chore

I guess that’s reason this elephant is now in the middle of our living room

floor feeding of my own fears that leaving you will leave me lonely

I love how much you love me, I love how much you show me

I love the way you want to let go when you hold me

I guess I’m in love with my own selfishness

And I’m sittin' here acting like its selflessness

You deserve more than this

This is crowding us and is the reason its

Looking like I’m the egotist, yeah insecurity is the same as this

I can’t do this any longer

I’m tired

And if I stay her any liar

A liar, a liar, a liar

I’ll be a liar

A liar, a liar, a liar

You’ll call me a liar

I can’t do this anymore

I can’t do this anymore

I can’t do this anymore

I can’t do this anymore