Sooner - Petal

Thumbing through magazines

Painting a dream house

Being mocked by the crack in the ceiling

at the top of the stairs

Wishing it’d swallow me whole

Quiet and whole

It’s your decision to change

But I’d rather make it for you

I’ve got a sneaking suspicion

Please don’t leave sooner than you have to

An itch I can’t scratch

Count me in I’ll bow down and sow a garden

of backbones I never had

Running circles straight into the ground

Spine bent back

Purple, red

I’ll continue to carry you

Perpetual, preventable ache