november - Lila Drew

All I wanna do is pick fights with you

You got me heading towards the wrong time

And tripping over fine lines and you know it’s about time

You won’t hang up, you’re just reaching for all the same sides

And I know that I’m not easy with the letting go

And I know that I don’t usually get the memo

Sitting in your back yard or driving in your dad’s car

Nostalgia on the side bar

I don’t wanna think right now, now, now

I can’t breathe when you’re around

I can’t sleep, I don’t know how, how-ow

Picking through the pages

A hundred different stages of what you misread

And what you thought I said

November was a mystery I’m trying to forget

I know that your heart shares the winter

I know you usually tend to come in cold

The red still stains the back of my memory

I can’t pretend that I’m still 10 years old

I don’t wanna think right now, now, now

I can’t breathe when you’re around

I can’t sleep, I don’t know how, how-ow

I don’t wanna think right now, now, now

I can’t breathe when you’re around

I can’t sleep, I don’t know how, how-ow

My mind is made of useless treasures

You can unpack if you want

But no pressure, I don’t need you, like you told me

It’s just minor, I’m not bothered, it’s whatever

But you’re poison and you know it (Ah)

I thought I would outgrow it (Ah)

Now it’s just new cars and lobbies and rooms filled with bodies

All blurry, you’re focused on me, but I can’t breathe

I don’t wanna think right now, now, now

I can’t breathe when you’re around (I can’t breathe right now)

I can’t sleep, I don’t know how, how-ow (No, I can’t sleep)

I don’t wanna think right now, now, now

(I don’t wanna think right now)

I can’t breathe when you’re around

(I don’t wanna breathe right now)

I can’t sleep, I don’t know how, how-ow