A Recipe for a Meaningful Life - Kaonashi

I often think about what will happen to me.

I made up my mind to change my life but everything stays the same.

Found comfort in memories, fantasies and dreams.

The only things I know that won’t grow old and be different than they were

yesterday.

When morning time comes, I’ll bring my heart along.

It’s that moment when the streetlights are still on at 6am.

I know the sun is coming but it’s still so dark,

And the view of the city sleeping evokes forlorn.

Painful, but peaceful.

I’m free from judgement.

I want to feel this way forever.

I always wanted to be that character in the movie

Who makes everyone happy and makes her parents proud

But that script was ripped to shreds on the day that I was born.

Now I’m a crisis actor fighting for the big screen.

You only think about yourself.

We all have problems, we all need help

And I can’t help it if I feel this way.

It’s not my decision if everything will be okay.

Everything is not okay.

Everything is not okay.

I want to kill myself.

We all have problems, we all need help.

So this is where our love will lie:

The you and I in suicide.

I love you.

Fuck the Fantasy, fuck the Sanguine, fuck the Trigger.

I want to lock and load 931 chambers

And make the coldest dish of revenge ever served

And go one by one by one until they’re all.

Homicide is a favor, thank me in hell.