Lost - Horus The Astroneer

Where do I go?

What do I say?

How do I convince myself

That I will ever find my place?

Time and time again

I’ve fallen flat upon my fucking face

And it seems that I can’t find my fucking niche in anything

I want to end my fucking life

I say it time and time again

But if I were to just die

How would they speak about my name?

How could I stay alive?

Running around lost inside this place?

Oh I am lost inside this place

Oh I have lost the fucking race

And when you look at me you see it

Painted on my fucking face

These are not words to get you moved

I swear these words are not for you

I wrote this down so I could fucking scream

Alone inside my room

Nobody did this shit to me

No family or a friend

I want to end my fucking life

I say it time and time again (Time and time again…)

I do not understand

The ramifications

Of your smile

When you pierce into my soul

With that gaze it drives me wild

Maybe I’m lost

Maybe I’m found

Maybe I just enjoy adventure

But at what cost?

I’m feeling down

So lemme write to you this letter

Or it’s a poem?

Or it’s a sound?

Where is my home?

Not in this town

Not in this skin

Soaking in sin

And if I drown

If I give in

Will you be by my side?

Or will that be it?

Let me explain

Let go of pain

Where is my home?

Am I not sane?

Not in this house

Not in this brain