Carrier - Conveyer

Here at the crux of my unbelief

I find truth in nothing and no one

Even though I’m proud of what I’ve done

I hate who I’ve become

Tell me how I’m supposed to feel

When the only thing I think is real

Is how often I’ve come to admit that my hope is fleeting

Tell me what I’m supposed to think

Never questioning anything

Seeing life through innocent eyes, burned into memory

I burden myself with aspiration and purpose

Set it all ablaze with empty intentions

I hope you haven’t given up on me

I give you everything I have, take my unbelief

Drown me in the grace I take for granted

From all the doubt that anchors me, I am finally free

Set free from my misery

Drifting further away from truth, carry me back to You

Every regret hails on me

I’m treading water, sink or swim

The tide is pulling me limb from limb

Carry on, You have always known my name

Bring me back to You

This is not who I want to be

Carry on, You have always known my name

Take me back, this is not who I want to be