Grown Man Cry - Amanda Palmer

We are standing

On the threshold

Of a decent conversation

When I can hear the door slam

I know the face you’re making

And I really want to talk to you

I really really wanted to

But once you get your

Mind made up

There is no getting

Through to you

For a while it was touching

For a while it was challenging

Before it became typical

And now it really

Isn’t interesting

To see a grown man cry

To see a grown man cry

I’m lying on the sofa

And the radio is blaring

And I’m scanning

Through the stations

As the boys declare

Their feelings

But it doesn’t feel like feelings

It feels like they’re pretending

It’s like they just want

Blowjobs

And they know these songs

Will get them

And I really want to talk to you

I really really wanted to

But I have learned my lesson

Now

And you’re not the one

I’m turning to

And for a while it was touching

For a while it was challenging

Before it got habitual

And now it really

Isn’t interesting

To see a grown man cry

To see a grown man cry

I was the first to warn you

I lay myself before you

I was the first to warn you

I put myself before you

We are standing on the corner

And you’re throwing

Down the gauntlet

It is not a life decision

We just need

To pick a restaurant

After all this I should know you

Well enough not to get into it

I should learn but I’m an idiot

You only want an argument

And for a while it was touching

It was almost even comforting

Before it became typical

And now it really

Is not interesting

To see a grown man cry

To see a grown man cry

To see a grown man

Throw a temper fit

To see a grown man

Cross his arms

And sit as if the

Whole wide world would end

If he was not a part of it

But at the same time

With no confidence

Never realizing

The consequence he’s having

On the ones he loves

Because he thinks he makes

No difference

We are standing

On the threshold

Of a decent conversation

When I can hear the door slam

I know the face you’re making

And I really want to talk to you

I really really wanted to

But this time I am giving up

I am simply giving up on you