Missing Me - Yva

Watching a sad movie scene

Watching grieving mothers scream

Watching borders come between

Watching someone make the team

Knowing someone else got clean

Just something that I’d like to feel

'Cos everything’s been feeling grey

Like joy and pain don’t wanna stay

For years it seems it’s been this way

But I seem ok

I just envy them their release

It’s hiding there inside of me

I’m scared one day it will come to be

Uncontained

I’m missing me

Feeling lik I don’t belong

Hating clothes I’ve ownd so long

Tried to make a mould but I fit wrong

Wonder where the wonders gone?

I hate the mob I hate this song

The words are silent on my tongue

'Cos everything is not the same

I shield my joy and raise my pain

I’m a child of my own make

But I seem ok

I just envy those that just go

I’m so inside my fear now

I’m scared one day I’ll never know

I’m missing me