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Praying for myself

These thoughts I try to hide

I have faith in me and hope this will survive

But it’s tearing me apart

I can’t hear the words by which I guide

So I must ask again, who will carry me?

I cannot deny, nothing can defend

From the helplessness that’s cutting deep inside

And I can’t prevent the thought that nothing’s real

It seems I’m waiting years for this day to end

The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me

Are not there behind the face that’s staring back at me

The anger and the pain of knowing where I am

I have come so far and I cannot return

Nothing I can do that I have not done

No words I can say, no truth left that I can see

So must I let this end and everything fall apart

Before I live my life as I have always done?

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong

Something I can hope for, something real that I can see

So nothing falls apart, so this does not end

I cannot return, I can’t start again

Nothing to deny, nothing to defend

From the helplessness that’s cutting me so deep inside

And I can’t prevent the thought that nothing’s real

It seems I’m waiting years for this day to end

Praying for myself

These thoughts I try to hide

I have faith in me and hope this will survive

But it’s tearing me apart

I can’t hear the words by which I guide

So I must ask again, who will carry me?

Nothing I can do that I have not done

No words I can say, no truth left that I can see

So must I let this end and everything fall apart

Before I live my life as I have always done?

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong

Something I can hope for, something real that I can see

So nothing falls apart, so this does not end

I cannot return, I can’t start again

Nothing I can do that I have not done

No words I can say, no truth left that I can see

So must I let this end and everything fall apart

Before I live my life as I have always done?

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong

Something I can hope for, something real that I can see

So nothing falls apart, so this does not end

I cannot return, I can’t start again