XVIII. - unknxwn.

Time is passing and it seems that my depression is the only thing progressing

Guess I haven’t learned my lesson

I just turned 18 and I can’t help but fucking think my life is gonna flop

harder than me when I hit the water

Don’t bother tryna be my fucking friend, it’ll end

Happiness is always fucking borderline pretend

Cause I just see the bad in everything, I’ll never make amends

I wake up and hate life then go to sleep and wake again

Fuck this, what kind of fucking girl would wanna cuff this?

Tough shit, I’ll guess I’ll find happiness in nothing

You tell me «I love you» and I feel like that you’re bluffing

Feel like I’ve tried everything just to feel something

But nothing works and everything hurts

You had all of this potential, I should of been dead first

If we could trade spots, I’d jump straight into the dirt

You were worth way more and I know that shit for sure

Breaking down more frequent

Life is just a sequence of events of shit we don’t vent because of secrets

I’m tired of keeping it, so this is mine

I’m afraid I’ll die with the regret of wasting time

I’m afraid I’ll die alone and never be remembered

I’m afraid if Hell is real, I’ll be used as tinder

But if not I’ll just rot fucking 6 feet deep

I wish I was dead and I’m only 18

I couldn’t be happy if you made me

You could never stay around me long enough to save me

Nothing that you do could ever phase me

I expect the worse in everything so you can’t break me

I been slippin' back into habits

How could I show love to you when I don’t even have it

Still in pain, I’m just better when I mask it

Tired of my bed, I’ll feel better in a casket