Box Full of Darkness - The Jokerr, Blackwaltz

I’m a box full of —

Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness (3x)

Im a box full of —

Things that you should never see

(and in a moment I might explode)

And I’m gonna spill upon the ground, all the pain like blood and —

(and they’we been warned)

Just exactly what I’ve been speaking of when I —

Sing I’m a box full of —

Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness

I’m a box full of —

Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness

Okay, back when I was young there was love lost

Between me and my dad, it was cut off

When I saw mom with her skull cracked in

Next to me on the bed in a puddle full of blood sauce

Locked in a room and screaming

Try’na wake her up but she just kept bleeding

He rolled her on her side so she didn’t choke on her tongue

And she woke up soaked from dry heaving

He took a look around the room and his boy

And his wife and he said 'fuck this, I’m leaving'

Unplugged the TV and the VCR

Then he disappeared in the evening

Left the 8-year-old Aithen alone in the house

Looking for the car keys and

Covered in blood, helping mother to the car

So she could drive herself to the ER for treatment

And one year before that I was sitting up in a crackhouse

With a crackwhore babysitting me

And watching my dad smoke a pipe on the couch

With this hooker giving him head, I remember so vividly

And then came a knock at the door

The SWAT, like 30 cops deep coming in like the infantry

He scrambled to the back door, two shots and he stopped

And his track said 'don't shoot', the intensity

Was so great that I blacked out

And I woke up in a squad car, next thing

I knew my grandparents are picking me up from the precinct

My asthma had me out of breath and confused

And before I knew he was locked up and mommy said

'daddy ain’t coming home'

And 12 years later I was sitting in the

ICU with a cracked face of my own, huh…

And I go deep in my mind

And see just what I can find

All of my darkest memories

Constantly play and rewind

And I’m just sitting here

Thinking about my mom I lost my senior year

From a heart attack

Right in front of me and my sister

And it’s clear that this was the start

Of a downward spiral with drugs

And nameless substances in abundance

In front of us, yeah, I fucked this up

It didn’t matter what it was

I just fix it and shoot it up

Or crush it down, make a couple of rails

And then just them up

Looking back, this shit makes me cringe

And it’s fucking disgusting

Even tried to hang myself

But my homie found me and cut me

Down and *BLAOW* and my feet hit the ground

I was so fucking happy to be alive

My heart was pounding and well

I’ve been clean ever since

Quit my daily regimen

Then 8 years later I moved back in with my sister again

And she was still getting fucked up on Seroquil and Oxy’s

Regardless of how hard we tried to get her to stop

She just wouldn’t listen…

She died of accidental overdose

And it kills me that her children

Are the ones who found her comatose…