I'm Not Going Back - The Gamits

I was angry

I don’t know at what

Disappointment filling up my cup and I could

Never trust in anything at all

I stayed in a place with many walls

When I fell down no one broke my fall but I was

Happy to feel anything at all

I’m not going back

I’m not going, ever going back

Paranoia snuck into my mind

The fear of failure keeping both hands tied

I felt like I could not do anything at all

I stood up frightened in my bed

My heart tried to explode my head

I felt the cold sweat on my face

I crossed my fingers just in case

Had I known then

What I know right now

Despite my efforts

Nothing would be any different

Cause I can not change anything at all