And the Sun Pissed Red - The Cumshots

I’ve been good for weeks now I’m telling ya I’m in control

I’ve got my shit together I know when I should fold

It’s just tonight nothing at all to fear

You’ll be with me all the time it’s not like I could run off anywhere

I go right home, but I won’t be alone

A thousend in cash and a mobile phone

I don’t know how I’ll stop

I sure can’t tell you when

I am lost in that whirpool again

Don’t think I’ll ever stop

Can’t see a reason why

Only dying makes me feel, feel alive

It’s that constant burden of trying to make it bearable

When my life is so fucked up and so far from reparable

That make me look for that final nail for my coffin

It’s way past midnight but I find hundreds in the nothing

(The same lies I’ve told everybody including myself a hundred times)

I go right home, I won’t be alone

A thousend in cash and a mobile phone

I don’t know how I’ll stop

I sure can’t tell you when

I am lost in that whirpool again

Don’t think I’ll ever stop

Can’t see a reason why

Only dying makes me feel alive

Wide awake, I never went to bed

Naked by the window

And the sun is pissing red

My hands look rusty, guess my nose has bled

Then I remember what my father said, what he said

I don’t know how I’ll stop

I sure can’t tell you when

I am lost in that whirpool again

Don’t think I’ll ever stop

Can’t see a reason why

Only dying makes me feel alive