Given Used Forgotten - Sylvan

Seek emotional collisions

Live, we live through imprecisions

Need imaginable visions

To be vulnerable and so weak

Meet fragile indecisions

And see they’re making it worth to live…

No more weakness — I tried, restrained and kept it inside

Grew up and now that it’s time I can feel…

Hesitating dreams and empty promises

Kept it up but never knew what for

Lacking all those treasures that I used to miss

And then eventually to suffer more and more

Propagating spaces chasing feelings prophylactically away

Disgorging disinfected vacuums to stay

Holding back my tears it could not ease the pain

Always on the edge to lose it all

Waiting for the reasons but they never came

And while I waited I built up my proper wall

Isn’t it a paradox to hide and to avoid so sterilized

Which in the end you realize exactly is for what you strived

But now I’m giving in to visions that I tried to circumvent

And visualize my new experience for real … given, used, forgotten…

Apathetically sick and restrictive

Bureaucratically hollow and pale

An abstemious agent of victims

Agonizingly wrong it’ll fail

Meditative deliciously thoughtful

Melancholic poetically free

Just spontaneous sadness though painful

With a pinch of a powerful seed

Feed your soul with life — and you better believe it

Breathe it right inside so you know that you need it

Read your lines and find there’s no way to delete it

Deep within you hide…

Even while I listened could not hear the wind

Wasn’t there a light I did not see?

Always found an end before I could begin

What I saw reflecting wasn’t me

Crucified a moment for eternity

Spoke in words I could not understand

And I tried to find it — tried it desperately

But always saw it slipping through my hand