Solace - STATEN

I woke up without you again.

You left your imprint in my bed.

I woke up without you again.

You’re the love I’ll remember,

and I’m the mess you’ll forget.

It was 4am, I kissed your lips inside my car,

it was cold as hell, I saw the truth inside the dark.

You were scared as well, I caught the shiver from your hands,

and I told you everything you needed to hear, understand

that I loved you more, I loved you so much more

than you could ever comprehend.

You could’ve broken my spine

I’d still try to make amends.

I saw it hurt you more than it

could ever damage me.

God damn me for ever

thinking that you could change.

My fault, the melodies

you used to sing are

memories that haunt me

when I dream or when I’m barely wide awake,

how’d you fuck me up so badly

that I moved to another state?

Took a flight all by myself

where the heat resembles hell.

I’ll do this on my own

I don’t need someone else

to fix all of my problems

I got it, please don’t help.

Can’t tell me my feeling’s invalid

if it’s what I felt.

But I’m cautious

cause of all this

anxiety that I bottled,

my apartment

it’s haunted

not the bottle again

I can’t stop this.

Need solace,

I’m a monster,

blind eye for

a pill at the bottom.

I’ll ration my medicine

crush it and snort the end

losing my mind again

losing myself again.

Wake up alone, wake up alone,

never want to fall asleep without you.

Wake up alone, wake up alone,

never want to fall in love without you.

Drink by myself, fuck up my health.

Never want to fall asleep without you.

Losing the cause now that you’re gone,

never want to fall in love without you.