Several Years - Sik World

Lately, all I feel is pain

Feels like my heart doesn’t beat the same

I wanna give up and I just feel stuck

In a life that I know I can not change

I’m really lonely and feel drained

Sometimes I feel like a mistake

I just sit and dwell in my trauma

My life’s full of problems

I feel like I might break

Tried to move on, but I just can’t

Breakdown after breakdown and somedays

I wish I could run away, just to escape

And feel at ease even if it means one day

Where did my life go wrong?

I was a happy teen and now I’m an adault

Who’s sad as hell and always at a loss

No one tell I’m drowning in my thoughts

I’m still lost tryna find purpose

After all these years, I’m still searching

Hope you forgive me for being a burden

Self-love is something that I’m still learning

And I know I lie when I tell you I’m fine

'Cause nobody knows I’m struggling inside

Sorry if you see me cry

It’s just I finally realized

It’s been several years

Since I felt okay

I’m losing my way and

It’s been several years

Since I’ve been on meds

I still feel depressed and

It’s been several years

Since I felt alive

There’s no tears to cry and

It’s been several years

Since I had a friend

That came and went

Lately, I feel so depressed

Tried to get help, but I’m still a mess

I don’t ever rest, I guess I’m stressed

Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck

Did I take my last breath?

Did I walk my last step?

I’m alive, but inside I am dead

Look, I lied, I’m not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck

I saw pictures of me in elementary

I don’t remember teachers ever telling me

I’d be an adult who senses people’s energy

Being an empath, attracts those who lack empathy

When I look back, my past shows me bad memories

Plus, it’s so sad, I had to withstand everything

All for my last, ex damn, thought you’d stand next to me

You stab my back and that hurt me bad mentally

It definitely changed me, but I forgive you

I understand now that you had your own issues

Your fear of abandonment really convinced you

That you weren’t enough for the love I would give you

I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you

And I feel hurt that you couldn’t commit to

Me or the love I would give you

Nobody knows what I been through

It’s been several years

Since I felt okay

I’m losing my way and

It’s been several years

Since I’ve been on meds

I still feel depressed and

It’s been several years

Since I felt alive

There’s no tears to cry and

It’s been several years

Since I had a friend

That came and went