Please Daddy - Sarah Mary Chadwick

And nothing stirs me not this summer

Nothing’s bringing colour to my cheeks, mama

So far from lying in the alley

Amputated from my personality, daddy

And all my influences in someone else’s bag

One and the same just me again

That’s all I ever had

And all the ones who died while trying

Should I follow their lead and be done, daddy?

Anne and Elliott and Sylvia

Do the work and then it kills you, right mama?

Amongst us all there’s three or four

That make it feel alright

And I want it all what’s mine and yours

Please hold me close tonight

And fuck it all so far from over

I got time, I can still show you, right mama?

And ignore the voice deep down inside me

Telling me the world won’t find me, like you daddy

And you are big and strong that’s how I like

And how she described it, it’s how it’s lived, it’s what it’s like

And roll my body in your hands tonight

And please, just do it right

Pick a magic and I’ll do it

Pick a magic help me through it

If it’s tragic I’ll still do it

Pick a magic and I’ll do it