Smithhaven Mall - R.A. The Rugged Man

Yo yo yo

I can’t believe the way I’m feeling

I wake up still poor plus the pain that exists ain’t never healing

(Day by day) day by day goes by time is wasted

My situation make me want to take a permanent vacation

I’d die for my pride plus I’m tired

I got no more respect left for the people in the past that I admired

(I'm not shit) I’m not shit (I'm not shit)

I won’t be shit (I won’t be shit)

I eat shit, I cut my veins and then I bleed shit

Plus kid, no man can be trusted

I lusted for the spare custard

I see the mirror close, fist got busted

I get no bitches cause I’m broke

The last bitch I had fucked my crew and tried to play me like a joke

It’s getting closer to my big hour

I bought my first gun at SIG Sauer

Y’all know it’s the only way to get power

But I ain’t shit

Even with this gat, I ain’t shit (I ain’t shit)

Ten years down the line the same shit (I ain’t shit)

I blame myself but at the same time blame society

If yo ass don’t know me then yo ass shouldn’t be trying me

Put the stick in my pants and grabbed the switchblade

That I got from my man the Harley Davidson rider

Better known as One-Eyed-Jake the Suffolk County biker

(I can’t deal with this shit no more yo, oh man)

I start to feel the shit

I see this clique, they think they ill as shit

But they won’t think they ill when I start killing shit

Hey na na na now

(Why did my life have to be this way?)

Hey na na na now

Now let’s get back to business

Witness the finish, shit is menace

Being broke make motherfuckers turn to sinners

I go to Smithaven Mall to see if anybody wants some

Anybody want some?

But this is gonna cost 'em

I walk in the sneaker store

My ass is about to get raw

Look at my watch it’s a quarter past four

My mind’s blank, flipping, shitting

This the dead zone

I see this Spanish kid listening to reggae on his headphones

I grabbed him, snatched him backwards

Smacked him, he tried to react, it’s when I was tempted to put a cap in him

But I didn’t, I figured it was best if he was living

Pulled the SIG out everyone inside the store started shitting

I made everybody in the spot get down on they fours

I made a 300 pound woman strip down to her drawers

It was sickening, I couldn’t believe what I was doing

My life is ruined at the age of 22

And it’s for real, trying to find the spot the safe is

Cannot escape this, I’m scared to be in jail with all the rapists

I tried to rule the world but I blew it

I gave the fat naked bitch the gun to kill me, she wouldn’t do it

So I took the gun back and beat her down

I gotta find a place to creep now (I gotta be out)

Yo, yo

This where my shit stops

I turned around, surrounded by six cops

Put the clip in my SIG, got six shots

They made my skull almost cave in for misbehaving

It’s cause I chickened out and threw the gun down and gave in

I had no respect on the outside

But now I got less respect on the inside (inside)

I tried to rule the world but I blew it

Wishing I was dead but I still don’t got the guts to do it