First Born - R.A. The Rugged Man, Novel

-I love you

=And I love you

-No, I love you

=I love you

-Oh, I love you more

=No, I love you more

Yo, I was on the down slide, the direction I was headed

I’ll never forget it, the day your mother told me she was pregnant

Went to YouTube: Jodeci — Forever My Lady

I danced around the house, singin', «So you’re having my baby»

Came from the ban-barred hard knock start

But the birth of a baby daughter softens a man’s heart

Born the anniversary of the day that my dad died

January 7th, you opened your eyes, and I cried

I didn’t exist before you, this is my first song

I was first born when I had my firstborn

See, I sweat it, I shedded tears to see these better years

Daddy bled, body half dead, fightin' to get the cheers

Eight months old, I had you on the stage rockin'

Already got you throwin' uppercuts and watchin' boxing

I’m used to knife fights, big guns and shit startin'

Now I shed a tear dropping you off at the kindergarten

I love you

Even if the world stops turning

Even if the sun burns out

You’re all I need

Honey, no doubt, and

When I was a young man

All the small things

Didn’t really mean that much

Now you’re all I see

I’m singin' Al Green to your mother, Let’s Stay Together

'Cause when she entered the picture, my life had changed for the better

Your daddy is the dirty filthy crustified creature

Your mommy is the dedicated educated schoolteacher

Like a song I wrote on a softer note

Gave my life some sort of hope when the water broke and my daughter woke

The happiest times in our entire life

Until it turned to fight after fight

Screamin', yellin' every night

I tried to fix it, I told her, «marry me», I put a ring on it

She said I’m inconsiderate, a hypocrite, she’s sick of it

The love fell apart, I’m dead, dyin' inside

Mommy and Daddy couldn’t make it work;

trust me, we tried

My bags packed, lookin' back as I’m leaving the house

Seein' my daughter cryin', tears flyin' as I walk out

Whatever problem me and your mom may be facin'

You still my baby angel, my most precious creation

I’d do life in prison, I’d cheat, steal, lie for you

Catch a bullet, die for you, be tortured alive for you

I love you

Even if the world stops turning

Even if the sun burns out

You’re all I need

Honey, no doubt, and

When I was a young man

All the small things

Didn’t really mean that much

Now you’re all I see

Hold up, I missed you growin' up

But think about you every time that I sleep

I think about you every time I’m awake

I think about you over a plate while I’m sayin' my grace

Oh, oh Lord, so thankful, I ain’t never had a gift so godlike

I know I been gone for lightyears now

You say you aren’t mine, I’m thinkin' what you are, like

A goddess, you know I love you

Beautiful, I guess you got that from your mother

And that stern determination, well, you got that from my brother

Duplicity from your pops, 'cause I’m a fighter and a lover, c’mon

Prepare for the rain sometimes, but never fear

Motivation comes from pain sometimes

You should follow your heart, but take your brain sometimes

And never let a man treat you like you ain’t sunshine, ah

Even if the world stops turning

Even if the sun burns out

You’re all I need

Honey, no doubt, and

When I was a young man

All the small things

Didn’t really mean that much

Now you’re all I see

Hold up, I know the song’s supposed to be over

But, you’re my daughter, I got to give you one more verse

I love you, but get your ass home before curfew

And if a man do you dirty, then he don’t deserve you

You’re still precious in a world that’s sexist, rest assured

The queen’s the most powerful piece on a chessboard

Be yourself, think independent, try to avoid trends

And don’t make sex tapes, or I’ll murder your boyfriends

Find a man that’s well-mannered and speaks politely

And stay far away from dudes that are anything like me

You’re my everything, my daughter, I fully adore ya

I’ll come to your school and smack up a bully for ya

I’ll even beat up the teachers, never no hesitation

We’re the Thorburns, and you’re the next generation

If a man bein' too forceful and he won’t stop it?

Then put your knee in his nuts, and your finger in his eye socket

Take the eyeball and gouge it, and pop it

Then take the little .22 I bought you out your purse and cock it

I love you