I DON'T CARE - Quadeca

Everybody loves a winner-winner

Yeah!

I swear, they only love me when I’m not there

I know you trust me, but I don’t care

I swear that I don’t care

I know you love me, but I don’t care

You know I was born up at the top floor, uh

But I came out at a basement, uh

Mom wanted me to be a doctor, uh

But I came out as a patient, uh (Oh, oh)

Now I get a thousand DMs every day

I had a fan telling me that I saved him (For real)

Saying that he loving everything I make

And I couldn’t take a single second out my day to make his (Uh)

I’m just getting number every time (Yeah) I see my numbers

Every time I see the bottom, every time we see each other

Every time (Yeah) I pop a bottle, every time I hit the lotto

Every time I see tomorrow, I just really want another (Uh, uh)

I’m just stuck between the gutter in the rain, and the pain that I’m feeling

But it’s something in the same kinda vain, that I’m healing (Yeah) from

I wonder why I feel so little

'Cause I ain’t been on the top, I think I’m somewhere in the middle, I swear-

Middle, yeah

I swear, they only love me when I’m not there (Everybody loves a winner-winner)

I know you trust me, but I don’t care (No)

I swear that I don’t care

I know you love me, but I don’t- (Care)

So what?

So what?

So what?

(What?)

Hole in my soul (Yeah), that shit looking like a donut, yeah

(Winner) You and me can laugh together

But, I don’t think that that’s gon' put it back together

I’ve been living like I’m stuck under the covers

I know this’ll make 'em proud, but I know they gon' need another And another,

and another, and another, and another

Like I’m DJ Khaled with a motherfuckin' stutter, 'kay

Yeah, today I woke up

Grabbed my phone to check the 'gram, I started scrolling

Got a message from a dude without a profile picture

Shit was long as fuck, I thought that he was trollin'

So I tried to swipe it out, but accidentally must of opened

I said, «Fuck it, guess I’ll read it now that’s it already loaded»

Had a sudden premonition, but it faded in the moment

So I focused, started reading, lemme' try my best to quote it

As he wrote it, it said: «My homie was a huge fucking fan

Used to play your shit every day

He struggled with depression

And he told me that the music was the thing that always set him straight

But I guess it must of gotten too much for him

Killed himself a couple months back, it’s felt so fucking long

But it reminded me of him when you popped up on my page

And I went and started listening to a couple songs, so…

…Keep doing you, bro»

He followed up with a post from his friend, it was a screenshot of my track

I clicked the profile full of «R.I.P."s

And the comments, shit, I couldn’t even stomach looking at

But all the sudden, in the instant, everything felt grimmer

Read the name again, and realized it sounded familiar

Clicked the DM, to see if he had talked to me before

Saw this was the same kid I consciously ignored (Every-)

A couple months ago

I swear, they only love me when I’m not there (!) (-body loves a winner-winner)

I know you trust me, but I don’t care (!)

I swear that I don’t care (No!)

I know you love me, but I don’t care (!)

Apathy

There’s no reason to be mad at me

That’s just how it has to be