Floodgates - PUP

The floodgates opened and there was a river

Flowing through me with a dull precision

It left me feeling nauseous

And handcuffed by a lack of ambition

Drugs and daytime television

Building like light through a prison

A thousand individual parts I couldn’t process

And I was lying in the backseat

I was trying to find

New words for the same repeating lines

And after the smoke cleared

Opened my eyes and I was still here

I was certain I was a goner

It should’ve been me on the table

With the wires and the cables

I’ll do anything you want if you stay here

Just a little while longer

And I was lying in the backseat

I was trying to find

New words for the same repeating lines

And I was lying through my teeth

Always saying it would be alright

I’m still feeling your fingers on my spine

And then the floodgates closed

And I was back in my darkened home

Feeling more depleted than I ever have

But instead of crying, whenever I think of dying

It only makes me laugh

And how can I explain it to you

When I don’t understand it myself?

And I was lying in the backseat

I was trying to find

New words for the same repeating lines

And I was lying through my teeth

Always saying it would be alright

I’m still feeling your fingers on my spine