My Life, Pt. II - Propain, J Dawg

Blessings, what the hell is that we stressin'

Ain’t no food around this bitch, my daddy took an exit

Momma double-shiftin still feel like we got nothin'

I can’t sleep cause the roof leak

And water drip inside this fuckin' bucket

Either starvin' or you thuggin', or sellin' dope we was 13

Boy dropped outta school and started hustlin'

My dawg schooled me to these stealin' cars I ain’t wanna touch it

But the way them hoes kept laughin' at my shoes I was like fuck it

So now we on some shit, we tip-toein' when we roll up

Backin' niggas cars out driveways like a tow truck

Hit the nawf side cause the chop shop gon' give us more bucks

And them same hoes that was laughin'

At my shoes now they gon' fuck

Blindfolded in the fast lane, we can’t slow up

We on the news now, auto-theft division startin' to know us

The walls was closin' in, them clear skies turn to grey

See that’s the part about the streets

That they don’t warn you when you play

Them hatin' niggas killed my dawg, a bitch set em up

Ain’t leave the house for 3 days, my pillow case was wet as fuck

When you young, you can’t fathom that they never comin' back

Your baby boy gone, how the fuck I tell his momma that

My soul numb, they gave my bro a dub and closed the case

When that devil go to work, nigga it’s hard to hold your faith

Ghetto dealers bad ends, but this the cards we chose to play

We ain’t worried about tomorrow

Hope they don’t take our soul today nigga

This my life

If you looked in my life, you could see what I see (x4)

I’m screamin' out to you lord, it’s your long-lost child

I know I strayed off, been gone for a while now

Please don’t turn that death ear to me

You say «Ask and you will receive»

Father forgive me I’m lost, hoe ass devil got me under his wing

Every time I try to come, he always intervenes

Strike a flame deep in my brain, got me thinkin' bout killin'

When at first, I was thinkin' I’m changed

Like a nigga schizophrenic

One minute I’m cool, and then I’m actin' a fool

Can’t understand it I’m manic shit, so close to goin' insane

Lord please if you don’t ease this pain, at least stop the rain

Pourin' down hail storm lately

Heart torn, got me blinder than a new born baby

Smoke at least 2 or 3 packs of Newports daily

My body done

Lord if you don’t come this cancer gonna take me away

Sound weak? Well nigga you come fade it

I done lost so many partners now, how I ain’t crazy

But I ain’t normal neither, normal than a non believer

Mind wicked

I done witnessed some of the sickest evils done to people

Shit I committed sins I can’t believe forgiven either

And I believe in Jesus, but I’m still scared of sleepin'

Dreamin' bout these same bitch ass demons every night

Tryna kill me I really feel it, I be fightin' for my life

And right before I, die

Can’t wanna see this shit