Letters - Plans

All of a sudden I miss everyone I used to know

How it felt so rough

We still keep in touch, but it’s not the same anymore

So I called you up just to see how you’ve been

You said you’d fallen in love, you couldn’t believe it

But your parents still hate the way that you turned out

I could use a little chaos at night

I’ve got a half tank of gas, a paycheck at midnight

We could get drunk on the roof

Set off fireworks like we used to do

I’ve got nothing better to do as far as your concerned

Cause when it’s over, it’s over

We can’t get it back

We can’t change the past and

It’s expected, I’m not that upset

Wish I had a way to hold on to what’s left of me

(You're resonating in the back of my brain)

It’s not like you know

(It's not your fault)

I crumbled and buckled at the knees

I walked home alone again

Just talking to myself

I broke down in a parking lot, I left you buried there

Tonight I’ll get my head on straight

I started pacing back and forth

I can feel you hesitate, get up and walk away

I started taking swings at anything

Just needed something to hit me back

The door understood my process

Beneath my shattered bones and broken glass

I let you use me like a habit

Now I need you like an addict

I"ll get up when I am through

I’ll get up when I come out of this

I cannot be your something

I’m sick of being convenient