Deeper Than Blood - Phora

Sometimes pain runs deeper than blood

Sometimes karma comes back on the people you love

Sometimes we gotta let go and turn the other way

We just fightin' for another day

'Cause everything has a cause, you may not like the effect

A heart full of pain and a life full of regrets

Forced to make certain choices that you might not respect

In this world full of hate, just a child of neglect

He was breathin' in cigarette smoke, watching cartoons

Loud yells comin' from the other room

Landlord bangin' on the door askin' where the fuckin' rent at 'cause it’s 30

days overdue

Nobody answers it

They was smokin' up the house like they ain’t know that shit was cancerous

But his mom is still tryna quit

She ain’t got no one to depend on to provide for her kids

She’s working 2 jobs

Barely makin' enough to fill his stomach

It’s still filled with nothing

Hard times, she can feel 'em coming

And it’s been that way for a while

She raisin' a fatherless child, you can see the pain in her smile

She got unpaid bills piling on up the counter

No matter how close to the edge she got, there was something about her

That never let her lose hope

Even when she hit rock bottom, she feels the noose around her neck

It’s just a loose rope

But it’s only getting tighter, suffocating her slowly

She’s a lover and a fighter, but something just keeps her lonely

She got a collect call but she already know who it’s from

She took a deep breath, answered the phone and begun

She said I gotta move on with my life, I told you it’s done

Plus it’s been 2 months since you spoke to your son

It’s not about me and it’s not about you anymore

It’s not about running the streets and acting a fool anymore

You’ve been gone for 7 years, there’s nothing you can do anymore

'Cause I’ve lost everything and I just can’t bear to lose anymore

You see, there’s somebody else

Not because I’m in love, but 'cause I needed some help

The type of help you can’t provide

I’m sick of waiting

I’m sick of sittin' around knowing you might not make it out alive

Sick of not havin' someone by my side

Sick of our kids askin «where's our daddy?»

I’m sick of tellin' them these lies

I’m just sick of it all

And if you ever make parole and have plans for the future, please don’t get us

involved

Don’t call, don’t write and most of all leave my child alone

And before he could say a word all he heard was a dial tone

As his mother put down the phone he heard her saying

«God, I need you right now, please just show me a sign, my heart is bleeding

right now»

But he was only a kid, so he really didn’t know much

Still tryna understand why his mother cried so much

Father’s Day was the worst

Plus they ain’t had no money in the bank, so it felt like every holiday was a

curse

And his birthday just passed

He’s getting ready for a lonely Christmas

They say his dad is gone for business

But he knows the difference

Starting to forget his father’s face and what he looked like

No bedtime stories, no good mornings, no good night

Just a good luck from the judge, his life would change with a sentence

Slam the gavel down, he’s found guilty of all the offenses

On the other side of the fence, left his child defenseless

Now he fends for himself, but he feels so relentless

His momma’s boyfriend drinks until his demons come out

The liquor takes control of his soul, he don’t speak with his mouth

He speaks with his fist, disagree get beat 'til your pissed

The type of pain that’ll make you put a knife deep in your wrist

I said,

He speaks with his fist

The type of pain that’ll make you put a knife deep in your wrist

Sometimes the choices you make, they don’t only effect you

But they also effect the people you love and care about

You see, I wish I could say that it’s never too late

But I would only be lying to you

Because time and the people we love are the only 2 things we can never get back

in this world