Dull - Olivia O.

The dogs in the yard

Are barkin loudly

I can hear it fine

My ears

Are hurting

Noises

All around me

Are so big

They bounce in my head

All this food is making me sick

Nothing in my bed

Nothing in my fridge

Nothing in my chest

I’m dulling out

I will not stop i will not stop it

I’m dulling out

I will not i will not

I feel it still

The claws in my brain trying to remember

But i’m too dull

To recall what it was i wanted to not forget

I’m dulling out

Overstimulated

Unprepared for the consequences of my actions

I feel myself

Dulling out

My senses are getting weaker

My sense of self is growing smaller

The moths that used to crowd me

Are no longer attracted to my glow

They’ve found something brighter

Than what they used to know

I can feel my brain as it gets older

Sense my hair turning grey

At roots

I will not cover them

I will not cover

I’m dulling out

I will not stop i will not stop it

I’m dulling out

I will not i will not

I feel it still

The claws in my brain trying to remember

But i’m too dull

To recall what it was i wanted to not forget

The crows have come

They’re singing softly

They can see i’ll be there soon

They can smell it on my breath

Im dulling out

Im dulling out