It Ends With A Fall - Okkervil River

Wish I could remember why it mattered to me

It doesn’t matter to me

It doesn’t matter to me anymore

Now that you’re feeling fine

I’ll admit that — though I know it’s coming down

And see it shattering me — it doesn’t matter to me

And I’m not sadder for seeing it come

I’m not going to run

I will just come when I am called

You want to cut me off

Because I took too much

But don’t leave me alone

Take off your scarves, your winter coat

The night’s too cold

When we met I should have said

You’re like a sister to me

How all that kiss her just seem

Like puny suitors I can see through

How none will do, not for you

It might as well just be us two

And when I pulled you by the jacket

From the clattering street

You started flattering me

You started saying I was so strong

String me along, but I can’t become all that I’m called

And I can’t claim to know

What makes love die or grow

But I can still take control

And so refuse to just go home

Back down the hall

And as I crawl

As finally all the false confetti blooms up in this attic room

I’m going make my stand

I want to see both of your hands put down the phone

I won’t let you go

Although the moment stole my self-control

From us all and now it can only end with a fall