We Are Nøt Okay - Oceans, Andy Dörner

My heart beats, my lungs breathe

And yet I’m drowning

Underneath the sea

My eyes glance, my mouth speaks

And yet I’m drowning

Right inside of me

Don’t you know that I am hurt?

Can’t you see me fade away?

The monsters got a hold of me

And I’m afraid they’re here to stay

Don’t you know that I am hurt?

Can’t you see me fade away?

The monsters got a hold of me

And I am not, I am not okay

When I look into the mirror

I see an unfamiliar face

Those tattoos are clearly mine

But I can’t feel myself

I make a cut and I can breathe again

Until the sham creeps in

I’m too weak

I’m too dumb

I’m too shy

God knows why

Why am I so complicated?

Don’t you know that I am hurt?

Can’t you see me fad away?

The monsters got a hold of me

And I’m afraid they’re here to stay

Don’t you know that I am hurt?

Can’t you see me fade away?

The monsters got a hold of me

And I am not, I am not okay

My heart beats, my lungs breathe

And yet I’m drowning

Underneath the sea

My eyes glance, my mouth speaks

But noone sees the void inside of me

I scratch my arms until they bleed

Need to get this tension out of me

All I wanna do is sleep tonight

But my thoughts run deep

I’m too fat

I’m too dumb

I’m too shy

God knows why

Why is life so complicated?

I text you

«Sorry I can’t come tonight»

And another tie gets severed

When all I want to say is

Give me a call

Maybe come over

Let’s talk or even sit in silence

I don’t wanna be alone tonight

I just can’t be on my own tonight

I am not okay

All I wanna say is

No, I’m not okay!

Listen to me

I don’t live — I don’t die

I don’t live — I survive

I am not okay

Go away

I am not okay

I am not okay

I fade away