Neon Gray - Night Birds

I’m always sick I know they’ll never find a cure

The stomach bile’s just the promise of a future cancer

Ill choke the acid back and just get by

And I’ll avoid thinking about how soon I’m gonna die

But if they had a remedy if they somehow find a way

To end this anxious nausea or just keep it at bay

When they’d peer in my insides I know just what they’ll say

It’s Neon Gray

I’ll die alone I know that there’s no fucking doubt

I know I’ll never find someone who gets what I’m about

I’ve tried but it’s the same all in the end

They want to take so much I know I can never let them in

And if I can find someone who can take my nervous hand

Calm my bastard temper and maybe somehow understand

When she’d look into my eyes, she’d see in my dull gaze

It’s Neon Gray

Neon Gray, Neon Gray — you’re a broken human being

You’re a thing you shouldn’t say

The medication wears off by the darkening of the day

Every day that you breathe air it’s Neon Gray

I’ve thought about ending it all so many times

Spinning awake each night I plan it all out in my mind

I’ve fantasized about how the hell and when

But I can never do it no matter how much I intend

The same thing that drives me to utter misery

It won’t let me end my life, no, not so easily

The fear of the unknown will drag me to my end of days

It’s Neon Gray