The Struggle - Moccasin Creek

I’ve always been open about it but man

If it just reaches one or two people, you know?

And they understand that it’s rough

We deal with it how we deal with it

I’m thinkin' 'bout all y’all that suffers with this bull shit

'Cause I’m

I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'

I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'

The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'

I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'

I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl

Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window

Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though

I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow

I’m sick and tired, slip quick and lit the fire

Do not admire my head-sick, I’m uninspired

The way I’m wired leaves not much to be desired

And now they tell me I’m just cryin' to the choir

I speak my piece in peace then I repent

I’m one penny short so I can’t give my two cents

The world’s in my hands but it really makes no sense

Starin' in the mirror, man I wonder where it all went

The harder I try dog, the harder it gets

The further I slide y’all, the tougher I grit

It’s the father inside me that I’m tustlin' with

And the husband inside that I’ve been jugglin' with

Then them drunkardly lies that I’m strugglin' with

Now I’m hidin' my pride like I’m smugglin' it

Yeah, I wanted to die, man I wanted to quit

But there is no good-bye 'til I clean up my shit

I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'

I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'

The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'

I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'

I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl

Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window

Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though

I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow

I wake up every night from the same damn dream

I remember bein' members on the same damn team

I remember bein' younger when the world stood still

I remember last December when they gave me new pills

The doctor said it’s normal and the only way to heal

The masses think it’s funny but those asses never feel it

When the poundin' in your chest has barely even been addressed

Until they hit you with a label and they tell you you’re depressed

They throw a couple pills and they wish you all the best

The side effects mean nothin' bud but go on get your rest

From here on out with out a doubt there will be no regrets

Like an old ass shirt I had to get that off my chest

I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'

I’m sailin' on the ocean and my ship it started sinkin'

The storm is comin' quickly and the rain it is a bringin'

I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinkin'

I’m a lost soul in a fish bowl

Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window

Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though

I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow

I’m blackin' out again but I ain’t even drinkin'

Lost soul in a fish bowl

Lookin' at my past through the glass of this pain filled window

Picturin' my life, but man I got a foggy lens though

I lost so many feelin’s I don’t even feel the wind blow