Lp Mashup - Michael Constantino

I’m tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

Don’t know what you’re expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I’ve become so numb

I can’t feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

'Bout becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like

One thing, I don’t know why

It doesn’t even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to explain in due time

All I know

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

So unreal

I didn’t look out below

Watched the time go right out the window

Tryna hold on, but you didn’t even know

I wasted it all, just to

Watch you go

I kept everything inside

And even though I tried, it all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually

Be a memory of a time I

Tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn’t even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

In the end

It doesn’t even matter

Crawling in my skin

These wounds, they will not heal

Here is how I fall

Confusing what is real

I bleed it out

Digging deeper just to throw it away

Just to throw it away, just to throw it away

I bleed it out

Digging deeper just to throw it away

Just to throw it away

For what I’ve done

I’ll face myself

To cross out what I’ve become

Erase myself

And let go of what I

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don’t know why I instigate

To see what I don’t mean

I don’t know how I got this way

I know it’s not alright

But I’m breaking the habit tonight

Ohhh

Why is everything so heavy?

Holding on

To so much more than I can carry

Holding on

Why is everything so heavy?

Why is everything so heavy?