Nerves - Merkules

I don’t know where to turn…

You’d think by now I’d learn…

I don’t know where to turn

You’d think by now I’d learn

Got blisters on my fingers from this money that I burn

But I don’t show concern

I’ll party 'til it hurts

They all want something from you, but won’t love you in return

It’s been fucking with my nerves

You’d think by now I’d learn

Got blisters on my fingers from this money that I burn

But I don’t show concern

I’ll party 'til it hurts

They all want something from you, but won’t love you in return

It’s been fucking with my nerves

Lifestyles of the rich and famous

I used to pray one day I’d make it

Then I did and it ain’t been the same since

I’ve been tripping I’ve been going through phases

I look around and I don’t see the same faces

Yeah I feel so close I can taste it

Impatient, wasted, anxious, I hate this

You ain’t got a lot a kickin'

So you should probably mind yo business

Starin' at the clock when the time keeps tickin'

The free throw line, nigga shot long distance

People say I’m narcissistic

The thing is I don’t have to play the part I live this

I really had to make some hard decisions

And I won’t ever do it if my hearts not in it

That’s the shit that I’m used to though

Pedal to the metal 'til I lose control

All I’m tryin to do is improve and grow

Until I’m on stage at the super bowl

My backs still crawling with demons

Plug my ears and I try not to hear them

I don’t even recognise the guy in the mirror

I ask myself like «Why am I Here?»

I don’t know where to turn

You’d think by now I’d learn

Got blisters on my fingers from this money that I burn

But I don’t show concern

I’ll party 'til it hurts

They all want something from you, but won’t love you in return

It’s been fucking with my nerves

You’d think by now I’d learn

Got blisters on my fingers from this money that I burn

But I don’t show concern

I’ll party 'til it hurts

They all want something from you, but won’t love you in return

It’s been fucking with my nerves

Sometimes I don’t really want to know the truth

I’m just doin' what I’m supposed to do

Never showin' on the surface what I’m going through

Need a fresh start and it’s overdue

Every single line isn’t quotable

Gotta manifest it all or it won’t come true

So let me get a toast to this ocean view

Who woulda thought that I’d be livin' like this

Now every single song is a hit I don’t miss

Someone pass the toilet paper man I’ve been on my shit

I’m sick stay away from me, I’m still at high risk

You start to notice as the narrative changed

While they still sleeping on me, they barely awake

I got my city on my back, I gotta carry the weight

So if I’m ordering the steak, then I’m sharing my plate

And I don’t really got time for the guys

Cuz I got these problems I’m trying to conquer

I do this for the people in line at my concerts

You’re now witnessing the mind of a monster

So I can’t pay attention to the fuckery

I was looking for something that was right there in front of me

Right now I’m trying to work on my recovery

But suddenly they all want to treat me like a somebody

What can I say man, the irony is real

I’m fully independent, I won’t sign another deal

My eyes are runnin' kill, and I’m firing at will

I’m the fireman everybody line up for the drill

I had a lot of issues I was trying to conceal

You aspired to be rich, I aspire to be real

I’m lucky 'cuz I still got desire in me still

And the drive’s still there but the drive’s uphill

I don’t know where to turn…

You’d think by now I’d learn…

I don’t know where to turn…

You’d think by now I’d learn…