Traumatized - Meek Mill

It really hurt me when they killed Shotty

I was locked down in my cell and I had to read about it

And when they killed Diddy, left him out in Philly

We was young and gettin' money, man we used to run the city

We was rockin' all them shows, f*ckin' all them hoes

And when they killed Darryl, Renee had to see him froze on the ground

Downtown, I can hear the sounds now

When she walked up to that casket seen her son and fell down

I drop tears for my n*ggas that ain’t here

And still think about you even though that it been years

Cause half the n*ggas that I grew up with is all dead

All this pain and all this stressin' I should have a bald head

Cause when my Aunt Rhonda died she looked Tock in his eyes

Saw death comin', when she seen it she just cried

Prolly part of the reason we drink and we get high

When I find the n*gga that killed my daddy know I’ma ride

Hope you hear me, I’ma kill you n*gga

To let you know that I don’t feel you n*gga

Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my momma cry

So when I see you n*gga it’s gon' be a homicide

Cuz I was only a toddler, you left me traumatized

You made me man of the house and it was grindin' time

So I’ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days I’ma let this rain hit you n*gga

I know

You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry

So when I see you n*gga it’s gon' be a homicide

I know

So I’ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days I’ma let this rain hit you n*gga

And I ain’t ready

N*ggas wanna murder me I’m ridin' around heavy

I think they wanna wet me like New Orleans and the levees

But I got this mac elevy, these n*ggas'll never get me

Lord knows, I got alotta homies in the dirt

N*ggas sprayin' metal tryna take you off the earth

Really over nothin', tell me what it’s worth

Tryna take you out the game just to put you on a shirt

I Rose from the jungle like Derrick

Death to anybody that oppose my spirit

My future lookin' brighter than this Rolls I’m starin' at

We be runnin' trains on the hoes y’all cherish

Rest in peace to my n*ggas, I swear I miss them to death

My hammers sing murda music, I’ll let you listen to death

I’ll have you walk with the reaper when hollows rip through your chest

Cause if you throw 'em I throw back like Mitchell & Ness

I’m gone

I know

You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry

So when I see you n*gga it’s gon' be a homicide

I know

So I’ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days I’ma let this rain hit you n*gga

Man my life so real

Last night I went to sleep and woke up with the chills

Started with a dollar, now I got a couple mil

And I make a hundred thousand every time a n*gga spill

Man I almost got murked in front of the same church

My dad got carried in, family got married in

That was in my older days, this is now, that was then

Had the block jumpin' for them dollars, Shawn Marion

Young n*gga gon' get my own that’s why I’m arrogant

Homie need the bail, for them bonds we’ll bury 'em

Lock 'em like a terrier, breakin' all barriers

Just to beat the trial we go miles like Darius

Cause cops tryna catch me, n*ggas tryna clap me

Haters runnin' at me, know they wanna get at me

And people got the nerve to ask why I don’t look happy

I did it for my n*ggas, and I did this sh*t for Kathy

I know

You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry

So when I see you n*gga it’s gon' be a homicide

I know

So I’ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you

And for all them cloudy days I’ma let this rain hit you n*gga