Rabbit Hole - Lauren Cimorelli

He spends his nights in coffee shops

Quick to fall, but he won’t catch you

He disappears like Cheshire cats do

And I know and I know and I know

You don’t know, you don’t know me well

And I know and I know and I know

I don’t know how to be by myself

I swear that I am flying while I’m walking on a wire

Convince myself it’s raining while you’re setting me on fire

So I’ll follow you down this rabbit hole

Till I don’t know how to let you go

Watch all of my sanity go up in smoke

'Cause I’d rather be going crazy than to be alone

(Be alone, be alone, be alone)

Empty words and flying sparks

With something cold to replace his heart

He’s perfectly assembled while I’m falling apart

He looks just like a work of art

He’s untouchable, so far away

He’s further than outer space

Trying to breathe in and out, it keeps on getting harder

But I’m okay with drowning, baby, if you are the water

So I’ll follow you down this rabbit hole

Till I don’t know how to let you go

Watch all of my sanity go up in smoke

'Cause I’d rather be going crazy than to be alone

(Be alone, be alone, be alone)

Every word he’s ever said to me

Has burned into my memory

He takes his time

Erases me from his mind

And quickly I’m unraveling

He’s gone and then he’s back again

But maybe I’m just dreaming it all

Aah

I drink you up, you shrink me down

I dig myself deeper underground

I can’t win, I can’t hide

'Cause it’s all in my delusional mind