Struggle Addiction - K Rino

Touch that iron enough times

You start realising that it’s pretty hot

But at what point do you stop touching it?

Come on

You know it never works but you keep doing it anyway

You know it never works but you keep trying it anyway

Real question, why do I indulge in things

That make it seem like I’m in love with pain?

Everybody speculating why the rug was stained

Cause the sweat and tears dried but the blood remained

Now I’m laying back thinking 'bout my cousin, man

I’m on some other sh-, like when the subject change

And the moment that I walked inside, judgement came

Cause I ain’t have a dozen chains like Clubber Lang

I guess you could say that I sacrificed some pay

Cause I chose not to sign my whole life away

But anything in hindsight seems suffice to say

And even the broken clock is right twice a day

Now, my main affliction’s a pain addiction

The same condition, but I won’t change prescriptions

So by definition I’m insane, the custom is scuffing

Cause only a fool keeps going back to receive nothing

I must have a struggle addiction

Cause I won’t change my troubled existence

I’m still living but something is missing

Keep doing the same thing, leading to the same pain

I really must love this condition

Cause I won’t find another position

I’m too trifling and stubborn to listen

Keep doing the same thing, leading to the same name

Now despite people’s envious ways, I’m feeling fine

Only dream that you seem to have is killing mine

I showed love they wasn’t thinking about showing

While I was bringing 'em up, I was sinking without knowing

Enabling the slick-hearted to make my life harder

As I’m saving them from drowning they pulling me underwater

Dead weight brings you down, I wasn’t knowing that then

It’s best to cut a loose string than try to sow it back in

I blame me for failing to move on

Only fools keep walking on glass with no shoes on

Dedicated to my craft, it’s been a turbulent ride

Sometimes it takes more away from me than what it provides

Still I keep coming back to it and taking a beating

Like a person who just won’t leave somebody that’s cheating

And if your plan fell through a few times, let me tell ya

One of the main ingredients of success is failure

See, be true, see through, every blatant and weak move

Deceitful people, Satan waiting to sweep you

Chase new breakthroughs, if you’re struggling, make do

You can run for ever but you can never escape you

This learned behaviour was too vicious to discern

Never did you think that your life would be taking this turn

Nothing to be trusted at all, even the kiss burns

Not knowing the feeling of having something when it’s earned

Sadly, crafty people seeking to grab me

Into the bottomless misery bag, try to add me

Plus you, now you in deep the pressure because you

Wondering if anybody actually loves you

Turn rat, one that you trusted in done that

Once that happens your confidence never comes back

Systems, twisted, spiritually conflicted

But if you’re listening then you’re in position to fix it