Eminem Speaks - Juice WRLD

I think it was-, I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of «Ahh»\nYou know, like everything was not only mellow, but didn’t feel any pain\nThey just didn’t-, it just kind of numbed things\nI don’t know at what point exactly it started to be a problem\nI just remember likin' it more and more\nPeople try to tell me that I had a problem\nI would say «Get that fuckin' person out of here, I can’t believe they said\nthat shit to me, they know nothin' about my fuckin' life, are they out of their\nfuckin' mind?»\nI’m not out there shootin' heroin, I’m not out there fuckin', you know,\nputtin' coke up my nose, I’m not smokin' crack\nYou’re struggling with the argument of «Do you have a problem, or do you not\nhave a problem? Can you control it, or can you not?»\nAnd I literally thought I could control it\nYou’re taking things that people are giving you that, you don’t even know what\nthe fuck they are\nThey look like a pill, and they look- they’re shaped like something that you\ntake, so you take it, you know\nXanax, Valium, tomato-tomato\nYou know what I mean? It’s th- the same thing, it’s all in the same family,\nfuck it, take it\nHad I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later, I would’ve died\nMy organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything\nThey were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn’t think I was gonna make\nit\nMy bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed\nAnd shot right back up too, my pills that I was taking\nI remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like «I'm gonna fucking die», like, I’m- I’m looking at my kids, and I need to be\nhere for this\nComing off of everything, I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three\nweeks straight\nAnd I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a fucking minute\nLike, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV\nI had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills\nIt’s been a- a learning process, like, it’s been, I’m growing\nI just couldn’t believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy,\nor naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on\nsomething\nSo, I would say that t- to anybody that I- it does get better, you know?\nIt just- it does