A Song Of Shadows - Jesu, Sun Kil Moon

Reading John Connolly’s novel 'A Song Of Shadows'

Was looking out my bay window at the stunning Golden Gate Bridge

It’s May 12th, 7 p.m.

at night

And I’m sitting here waiting for you and I don’t like it that we’ve been in a

fight

I leave at the end of next week to start a tour in Paris

And like always the night before I’m going to take you out to Harris

Our favorite dinner spot in the world down on Van Ness

Me and my girl, my everything, my beautiful princess

I’m a handful anyone would agree that’s true

And when I die someday everybody who knew me will have a good story or two

But one thing nobody ever really knew

Is just how much you mean to me and how deeply I loved you

Without you my life would cave in

I’d be an empty old man curled up in a bed laying there aging

I’d have a girl who’d be sitting here next to me staring at her phone

Shooting stupid photos of her stupid face out into this stupid world

Without you my life would be a ship wreck

I’d be going down to the bank depositing my royalty checks

Flirting with the bank tellers behind the desk

And when I’d walk out the door they’d all have a good laugh at my expense

I remember my 43rd birthday you took me for steak and lobster at Poor Red’s

We came back and got in my hot tub up in the mountains

There was a chill in the air and light snow on the ground

It was the best birthday I ever had and I was so proud to have you in my life

and I’d just bought the house

Now it’s May 16th and I’m on your couch sitting by the fireplace

You’re making chili in the kitchen and it smells so good and we’ve patched

things up and now I’m feeling OK

And I’m intrigued with this character a young girl named Amanda the daughter of

Ruth Winter in the book 'A Song of Shadows'

She’s got a thing for older men no time for boys her own age

And it’s time to eat now so I closed the book on an airplane ticket between the

67th and 68th page

And it’s Saturday, 9 p.m.

at night

And in this moment I love you so much and everything about my life

Without you I’d not have much to live for

When I come home from these long trips and set my shit down on the floor

I’d have a number from some girl from Singapore or Shanghai

And when I’d call her she’d ask if I had Twitter or Skype and I’d lay down on

my bed and I’d wanna fucking die

Without you my life would be a nightmare

I’d hibernate all through the winter like a big old Alaskan brown bear

And I’d spend my Christmases &my birthdays all alone and way down there in the

stack of books would be 'A Song Of Shadows'