America's Next Model - Hotel Books

I wanted us to be model citizens

So no one would ask us about our sins

But there’s an intoxicating thrill

That comes with entering a home of love

And finding skeletons in the closet

And there’s something about community that creates competition

And something about competition that leaves me feeling uninvited

And the ones that stain the healthy way and inspire my faith

Are the same ones who are ready to jump ship

The second thing turns to fifth and the path I’m on diminishes

Or the lights on the sides of the road that I walk down fall dim

And I’m sorry, darling, but you were the worst of them

I used to feel alone when I thought that nobody loved me in truth But now I

feel alone when I think about the way that you do

You told me you didn’t want me to fall asleep with bitterness in my heart

So I guess I’ll just stay awake

You said you could tell me and only me, and I wouldn’t fall apart

But you couldn’t see me stand when I began to break

And I was told that true character shows when no one’s around

But I felt like no one wanted me around

And the sound of the ground being punished by my feet

And the solitude I find when I put ice on my shaking knees

Resound in a profound runaround of emotionally-bound conclusions

I came to I felt like I was going to drown

And the bitterness you thought I felt

Was just your own mind confusing bitterness with acceptance

And fixing our broken home with wasting time

Because you thought it would begin

And sometimes I hear the crack on the windowsill

And I miss the days when it had a picture of you and I

And I miss the emotions that came with chasing after this thrill

But mostly I just miss being a part of your life

And I remember when you stopped saying I love you

Unless you were just saying I love you too

And then I remember when even that was too hard for you

And I remember the day that the blue suitcase on the top shelf of my closet

disappeared

And so did the passion you had for me here

And the fear of knowing you could leave me had vanished

But so did the reason I ever felt purpose

And it hurts to know that you said goodbye

But I just thank God that you’re alive

And I’m happy that you’re happy

And my joy comes from knowing you were once mine

And I’m grateful for that

And even though there’s so many words I wish I could take back

I still thank my God every time I remember you

I still thank my God every time I remember you