Someone New - Helena Deland

If I could have every thought

As though for the first time

I’d never get sick of

The patterns of my mind

But I am stuck

If things go my way

I’ll stay in this room

Where tonight I want to lay

Kissing someone new

With a familiar face

I can’t replace

Because remembering, no

It hasn’t been enough

It’s like the partial glow

A bright flower gives off

At night

Color imprecise

What if I told you

It’ll all just end the same

And then turned to you

Showed you my game

You’d believe I’m stuck

Until I get ahold of

A stranger to remind me

I don’t contain the world

It is outside, can’t I see?

And in it I’m this lucky girl

And how to play my role

'Til I get too old

By then remembering, oh

It better be enough

I’ll be covered head to toe

In the faded flower patterns of

Memories

Of nights like these

Of good times passed

I’ll be home at last

And I will give

Myself a fucking break

If things go my way

I’ll stay in this room

Where again I want to lay

Kissing someone new

Who tells me

Something pretty

So that I too

Can feel like someone new