No Control - HAVENS

I’m doing my best to speak from the heart

Truth be told, I’m afraid that I’m falling apart

I’d do anything to get outside of my head

But here I am, suffering alone instead

So tell me words I need to hear

Now that death is a demon I no longer fear

This cycle of uncertainty doesn’t seem to have an end

It’s like I’m being dragged through hell and back again

I apologize for my bad vibes and negativity but

Unfortunately, I have a dark side that seems to get the best of me

I find myself surrendering to substance

Just to fill a void. It’s the only constant;

That calms the voices and blocks out all the noise

Whoa, oh-oh, I am no longer in control

At what point do I draw the line

And say enough is enough

But I guess, the real question is;

Will I ever be worthy of your love?

All I can do for now is chase a high to numb the pain

This life of lonesome solitude is getting harder to maintain

I find myself surrendering to substance

Just to fill a void. It’s the only constant;

That calms the voices and blocks out all the noise

Whoa, oh-oh, I am no longer in control