Lying - Hadwyn, Madi Diaz

I love you and I’m not afraid of trying

I’m not afraid of trying, I wish I was

And I hate 'cause I know I’m really lying

I know I’m really lying and it sucks

I could lay in this bed

Wide awake and upset

And I can make it

But I know that I’d be lying

I’m so tired of living like angels and devils

Always at war with each other

But we’re both losing the battle

What did I do?

Remember when you used to need me

Exactly how I used to need you

But you’re telling me now you don’t want to

I love you and I’m not afraid of trying

I’m not afraid of trying, I wish I was

And I hate 'cause I know I’m really lying

I know I’m really lying and it sucks

I could lay in this bed

Wide awake and upset

And I can make it

But I know that I’d be lying

I know that I’d be lying

I know that I’d be lying

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

Your words, burning my heart through the wire

Mountains of gray from the fire

Suppressing the rush of the pain

Will I ever learn?

How to be cold like the winter

How to cover my heart from the blisters

And not cry when I’m seeing your face

I love you and I’m not afraid of trying

I’m not afraid of trying, I wish I was

And I hate 'cause I know I’m really lying

I know I’m really lying and it sucks

I could lay in this bed

Wide awake and upset

And I can make it

But I know that I’d be lying

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

(I know that I’d be lying)

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to

I don’t want to