Self Destruction - Glen Porter

I’m at the point of mental combustion, stuck in this rut and

All this extra weight just results in self destruction

Beatin' up myself I need to find some kind of peace

So I take that walk to the corner bar searching for release

Twist the caps and throw 'em back that’s how I numb the sorrows

Getting lost inside a bottle forgettin' all my tomorrows

Spoken word and smokin' herb to try and calm my nerves

Turning my lungs death black, guess it’s what I deserve

Through all the cheap escapes used to break free from reality

From all the pills and all the thrills that pull me down like gravity

In actuality, I bring this pain upon myself

So whatever the case, don’t take this as a cry for help

Contemplating the next step in this mysterious journey, yearning,

this passion is burning

For the cure to stop my stomach from turning

I’d do anything to constrain this pain of my brain it’s hard to stay sane with

a weight upon my shoulders

That’s much more heavier than boulders

Building up pressure inside it feels like I’m about to burst

To tell you the truth talking about it just makes me feel worse

Like I’m living a curse that’s got me destined for destruction

And when depression sets in it makes things difficult to function

Trying to make things all right but wrong’s the only thing that’s left

Can’t even write this song right 'cause I don’t know treble or bass clef

Living my life day to day without knowing what comes next

See that’s what fuels my frustration, it’s not so complex