Pressure 6 - Flawless Real Talk

They say that fear is a dream killer

But my fears of failing they let me dream bigger

So big some would say its just a fantasy

Well I’ma do it to the point where every fan’ll see

I think back to the day of pressure 3 when I wrote that track that night I was

a different man

Because halfway through I was through with the pen when I put it to my head and

the trigger, damn (damn)

I knew it was a mistake, you never understand thinking that’s the way to escape

I felt the pain so deep I couldn’t stop with the shakes

Then they show me that it wasn’t my decision to make

I had a, pile of glass, floor full of ash

With another bottle to smash once I finished the last

My inner voice, telling me it could be gone in a flash

You never think these type of thoughts till your down to ya last

I know its crazy, to think I could have ended it there

To be numb, see it more as an attempt to be scared

Ain’t the one, to talk about it but I’m blessed to be here

And God I’m pourin out my heart just from my chest to be clear

And yeah, though the pain re-created such a sicker flow

I ask God why I’m walking with a bitter soul

And right there I began to understand

What he put into my hands was the recipe for me to grow

I was so busy tryna get the world to love me

I forgot the ones who already did

So caught up on tryna make a future for them

I couldn’t be there all the time for my kids

Then I wonder why a bitter baby mother made me suffer cause she never found it

deep in her heart to forgive

Cause before I was tryna be a dad I was deep up in the pad but the raps weren’t

paying

And it was all for opportunity, did it for years

And the payback was everything that’s gotten me here

If they say, I don’t deserve what is coming its clear

They don’t know, I’ll flood the earth with all the sweat and the tears

I’ve had quitting on my mind more than dozens of times

But can’t let them see a failure when they look at my eyes

I’d rather die than to have my daughters thinking I tried

To make it happen for their future but could never provide

I see the time, its passing in the blink of an eye

I feel the pressure, its pressing in the back of my spine

I hear the critics, they said that I was stupid to try

But a star needs all the darkness in order to shine

These rhymes gave me the name but I was flawed from the start

So many cracks, but this diamond hasn’t fallen apart

Here comes the flood better get you an ark

Cause you’re gonna need 2 of everything to rebuild when I stop

I’m on a mission

They tell me not to change and they love to listen

But if you turn the page you can see the vision

Day to day everything feel like the same

But when you think of the past and look back everything is different

I think about the team that I got around me

The way we met, what we’ve done, how they got around me

I sit back just to watch them working hard around me

Knowing I gotta be number one if they counting on me

So there’s no tuning the brakes and nah, (nah)

There’s no losing our place

This hotel is booked up there’s no room for mistakes

What is a movement if there isn’t any movement to make

And that’s why, I gotta keep us at a positive pace

So I try to, make it so there’s not a moment to waste

I won’t lie, its cool to get a co-sign from the greats (hah)

They know that I can see the real and the fake

I’m wide awake and I know what I can bring to plate

But I don’t know if the help is worth a slice of the cake

It took 10 years for me to bake

So excuse me if I’m sensitive on how much you can take

Me and my whole team walking down the road of success

No such thing as free rides when they all see a check

That’s why the pressure’s always leaving me stressed

Cause everybody say he’s gonna blow its still anyone’s guess I’m real