Truant - Fathoms

tonight we just don’t give a fuck

so lets get another round

we come up just like the sun

and we go down when the night is done

a night I wont remember

with people I can’t forget

as we hit the fucking streets

I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been

I swear I’ll never sleep

I’ve found a short term solution

to a long standing problem

so if I drink and get high

while the world passes me by

I can still see the sky shine

when I close my eyes

forget about this life and try to find

a way to keep me blind

as we hit the fucking streets

I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been

and the

debauchery

is catching up with me

when you can’t look after yourself

how the fuck can anyone else?

step by step

I feel my feet loose their grip

on the streets that I grew up in

day by day

I feel myself fade away

what meant so much to me has changed

breath by breath

I feel the air leave my chest

and all I have to look back on is regret

this is the calm before the storm

this is the peace before the war

this is the bend before the break

these are all the things I could never say

I have no fear yet I am afraid

I cannot feel yet I am in pain

I feel asleep yet I am awake

I inhale love

and exhale hate.