Magical Thinking - Esham, Daniel Jordan

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I just need to find a place to hide

'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I’m still alive

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I’ve lived inside my head

I can’t sit at a restaurant and have a bite

Too many people talking makes me lose my appetite

I don’t like to leave home.

I got anxiety

I can’t exist in this sick society

Too many people are perverted, and so am I

After I sleep with a girl, I curl up and hide

When somebody locks eyes with me, I look down

And act like I don’t even see him comin' around

I get needy grab my phone

And pretend to text anybody, I’d rather be a bum

I’ve been talking to this girl for six months

But I ain’t even heard her real voice once

The world’s over, so find a place to hide

If you wanna survive, don’t ever go outside

Don’t watch the news, 'cause everybody is dead

Just lock your doors and live inside your head

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I just need to find a place to hide

'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I’m still alive

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I’ve lived inside my head

I got a whole world inside my head, and I’m the ruler

Sick shit goin' on in my medulla

I’m frozen like Freon fresh out the cooler

No class, but I still might school ya

Don’t let if fool ya, macho man, ooh ya

Killed a police, then I flee and allude ya

Stood on many stages, never got booed, yeah

Went up in the church

Caught the Holy Ghost, fuck a and the goat

Let the pig squeal at the barbecue roast

I couldn’t spell his name on the suicide note

So I just said «Fuck it» and that’s all she wrote

Then my head got to spinnin', the devil got to grinnin'

I was losin' that life, but I thought I was winnin'

I was prayin' on Sunday, every other day sinnin'

Until the FBI came and kicked my shit in

The devil got a hold on me, somebody told on me

I was a hot boy, but then they went cold on me

It could have been anybody who on me

'Cause when you’re sellin' your soul, you sure gon' see

Ain’t no life insurance in this game of policies

They shoot you down in the street with no apologies

Rap poison for the rodents that infest the cheese

Rap crooks wanna look the secret recipes

It ain’t no honor among thieves out in the streets

'Cause everybody is hungry and wanna eat

I know you see what I’m sayin', but you don’t wanna speak

Only the strong survive, but the earth inherited by the lead

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I just need to find a place to hide

'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I’m still alive

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I’ve lived inside my head, and I don’t go outside

I live inside my head, and I don’t go outside