This Can't Be Life - Emilio Rojas

Single mom I was raised by her, in a place where the hate triumphed

Half white, half Latin, so my inner conflict was a race riot

She said I’d never be shit, said I’d die young, said I’d end up in a precinct

Where the cops wanna see us dead, now they only looking for a reason

Uh, now I’m in the four seasons feet kicked up on the balcony looking at the

city lights

Thinking of the broads that I did so wrong, now, I was so focused on getting

right

Put them in a cab and I put them in a song, uh huh

I don’t know if she got style cause I only seen her in a thong

It’s a life I lead, no, my life don’t lead me

Yeah, and I don’t need love, and my love don’t need me

Yeah, that’s co-dependent, coulda end up as a co-defendant

Coulda spent months in a coldest cell because a code of silence is a code of

ethics

Where I’m from, everybody sold drugs, uh huh

We don’t wanna die young, and we wanna grow up, uh huh

And my homie just OD’ed, had to see it online, no one told me

Right, I ain’t know he was a dope fiend with kilos in his arm tryna play it off

lowkey

poking his vein, when I’m back home now it won’t be the same

Tryna find hope in the rocks like looking for a teardrop soaked in the rain

Nothing changes, hate from love or is it love from strangers?

Said I’m living on the edge, I just hope it’s sharp enough for me to cut the

chains

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and this can’t be

And this can’t be life, and it can’t be

We deserve more than that, uh huh

Gotta make this right, yeah

Yeah, and this can’t be life

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and it can’t be

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and it can’t be

We deserve more than that, uh huh

Gotta make this right, yeah

Yeah, and this can’t be life

And lately I’ve been praying, amen

Tryna box with God but my heart is too heavy to make the weigh in now

I’m staying patient, in the study, recording

I’m on credit for them hours, knowing that I can’t afford it

And my cousin started snorting shit, my little sister pregnant, damn

I told her to abort it, since I said it, I regret it now

When my niece and nephew enter this world, and it’s gonna be guilt

When I look into they beautiful eyes and I think of the time I said she should

kill them

I’m not perfect, I don’t pretend to be, I’m my worst fucking enemy

Cause I gave my ex’s all they best sex and they worst memories

But still they just can’t seem to leave me alone

That’s a cycle of dysfunction man, that shit just go and go

We just kids from broken homes, can’t fix shit, struggling with love and

addiction

And all the months that we never paid rent on time, landlord threatening

eviction

When them doors close though, you just gotta break through, right

You don’t wanna look back with regrets, stressed out 'bout what you ain’t do

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and this can’t be

And this can’t be life, and it can’t be

We deserve more than that, uh huh

Gotta make this right, yeah

Yeah, and this can’t be life

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and it can’t be

Yeah, and this can’t be life, and it can’t be

We deserve more than that, uh huh

Gotta make this right, yeah

Yeah, and this can’t be life