Hold It In - Eldest 11

Gas Chambers…

Leading me down where the orchestras play…

The destruction… and symphonies

Violent songs to me…

The violent games that we play…

Building castles in my mind

Trebuchets in my eyes…

Monster!

When you’re out of line…

And the shrouds you build

Doesn’t make any sense at all…

And I hold it in… And I held it in… Just hold it in…

In my eyes, I’m not there

Look at me!

They’ve taken everything away from me

In my eyes, I’m not there

Look at me!

They’ve taken everything away from me

Take your pills!

I watched you build your barricades…

Now you look afraid… Tell me how you really feel!

Covered in white… I've been down for too long

Now I’m ready to fight… So hollow inside!

And I hold it in… And I held it in… Just hold it in…

In my eyes, I’m not there

Look at me!

They’ve taken everything away from me

In my eyes, I’m not there

Look at me!

They’ve taken everything away from me

Taken everything away from me… Taken everything away from me…

Just give me space!

Let me feel everything!

I’m tired of feeling this way

God made me this way… How can you judge anything?

You don’t even know, you’re not me!

and I’m not there…(no longer there)